Lyrics to a song i made

today, i made a song based on a sample from "i don't care". i wrote lyrics, and quite simply, the lyrics are the best i've written yet.

this is the instrumental to the song: http://solidfiles.com/d/8381/

here are the lyrics. this is not all of them, and this is not the final order.

freestyle one
i don't get why you lie, but i still try to understand what in your mind makes you decide to spit your rhymes. i close my eyes and i just sigh 'cuz you just aren't worth my time. but i don't need to be a spy to see that it's yourself you fry; you're gonna crash and burn and die.

verse one

i always try my best to be considerate of you
respect your touchy subjects and do stuff you wanna do

three times now i have thought 'there's no more chances, it's his last'
you're three for three for blowing them, forgiveness time is past

one day that girl will leave and you'll ask where'd all my friends go?
and in your time of need i may be there but i dunno.

that i should just step back and let you fall is what they say
and whether i agree, it changes almost every day

verse two
remember on that bench that day you said "you're my best friend"?
i prol'ly would have laughed had i foreseen the way we end

i tried to do the right thing but by now i've simply learned
when offered you just take and never give back in return

not bothering to stop your being fake, i've had enough

now go hang with your girl and mistake your love and lust.

so if you want your life to be an act, well then have fun
just go and say your piece behind my back, because i'm done

verse three
i remember bag of pasta, spyro, stolen milk crate
up until the fair when it all changed and now it's too late

so come on open up a little, tell me what's happening

if it wasn't for you i wouldn't even be rapping!

you showed me to the game, abandoned me, what am i now?
i wanna be the greatest ever seen but don't know how!

so i'll just put your plans on hold indefinitely too
cuz honestly i'm running out of breath from chasing you

verse four

i feel like telling you cuz there's no doubt you've gone astray
should i let out all the things on my mind or make them stay?

now notice that throughout this i've refrained from being mean
this song is not about that cuz i know the pain you've seen

your mom, your grades, your girls, your life
your brother, your rage, your wrist, the knife

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verse five

i hate what's happened with us, you were like my brother man!

but i guess i was wrong cuz clearly you've made other plans!

having fun, hiking down a river, just being stupid
everything was going great till you got struck by cupid.

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you'll notice im not mad it's not a diss it's a lament

cuz im just learning to accept that this is where you went

verse six

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i feel like i always give you respect you dont deserve!

cuz every ball you throw me's got an unexpected curve.

no time for me, just blow me off, i've seen all your dealings.

clearly you think that i'm just a machine'ts got no feelings!

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freestyle three

maybe you dont think it's fair get pissed and swear but i'm not scared i'll only stare 'cuz you're a burden i wont bear and im the burden without time to spare to hold the air inside my lungs im unimpressed by who or where cuz guess what i no longer care.

Chris's response:

I Know i been a jerk and personality has more then one quirk here let me be honest when i said we were brothers i meant it that was a promise i do wanna be friends so that's why i respond to make amends the reason i rap and use all my free time to rhyme is a simple i have a love for the rap game it's a way for me to vent my frustration and pain my art my form of expression the meds to get em outta the depression my brother i can't take this aggression so listen to my suggestion lets squash this beef have some fun say screw it go to the woods and run but if not i guess i'm done"

-chris cruz aka sugar-water-red aka ConCept

-note to chris- i changed 'fuck' in your freestyle to "screw". the whole song has no swearing, (didn't even plan it) i figure it makes sense to keep it that way.


...this is how it actually happened, for those who wonder.

Wasted Day?

i leave for camp in what, 5 days? maybe 4. that's all the time i have in contact with my freinds and family for an entire month.

what did i do today? i pretty much sat around doing nothing. playing with my music creation program, but every time i was almost done with a song i would just delete the entire thing and start over. i also wasn't having the slightest bit of creativity. every single one was entireley sampler based, no real composing of my own involved.

also, i haven't eaten enough today. i had a banana and a small bowl of cheerios for breakfast. that's all I've eaten today. yet despite the fact that im in my kitchen as i type, i dont feel like eating anything,even though my stomach hurts.

tonight, im going to a sleepover. I'm going to see the person that is half my best friend for the first time in weeks. i've been holding in a lot of anger at the other half of him all for tonight. i didn't want to make it awkward, but i honestly dont know how i'll react spending a whole night aroud him. last time i made a plan with this person, they blew me off saying they didn't want to do anything that day, and then i found him on my way home from what i had been doing. upon seeing me, he ran away. i have a few choice words i dont want to say as to the cowardice of that action.

i'll talk about why me and him are mad at each other in some later post...

additionally, i dont know how he will react. where i've been carefully hiding my seething anger at his decisions, he has made no secret of his contempt.... or at least it feels that way. he's going to be a lot more impulsive as the night goes on, and it's going to be hard to stay the bigger man if he actively tries to provoke me. :( overall, he's not reliable for sticking to social plans, and i honestly hope he doesn't go tonight.

overall, i feel like I've wasted my day. i haven't produced anything, i didn't get anything packed for camp, i haven't gotten ready for the sleepover, i just... wasted it...

now im going to go eat something, my hands are shaking.

A Song I Made:

i do a lot of music. today, i created a remix (sort of) of the SMB airship theme.

http://solidfiles.com/d/5fb8/

see if this works...

hello

ok, testing, this thing on?